Sunday, May 18, 2014

Love me for me ♥


Both Lenah's Outfits - Turtle Wurtles by Cutie Cakes
This is her Bargains for Babies this week 75L's


Pose - Love me for me by Defiant Pixels (not out yet)



Love me for me!

I wanted tew name this pose that cause, both the zooby & the TD are myself ... The baby is a baby of lenah, that is growing up with me. If you know anything about zooby's they have different stages they grow through, and by the time baby lenah is at stage 50, which I'm goin to pretend is age 5. The age I am playin with lenah ♥ And I want people to love me for me.

Not the old person I used to be. I mostly use Dizzy as business, to makes poses on, and to do photos. My passion is photos, and poses now. I have an amazing family I hope to get a photo with SOON ! The last almost 2 months since I made lenah - Have helped me a lot! I have started talking to my BooBoo about things I should have talked about years ago. But you only open up to the ones you truly trust!

So I'm glad that you have come into my life BooBoo! I'm so glad that you are part of my everything and that you love me for me !! ♥ I hope everyone enjoys my blogs, cause I do surely enjoy making them! I love writing, and letting ppl know what I feel, and how I feel about life!


So please be sure to go check out Cutie Cakes !! She's an amazing designer and I'm so glad I can call her my friend!  Cause paige is an amazing person!


My song for this Blog Entry ...

Cher Lloyd - Love me for me !






Saturday, May 17, 2014

4evah I Dew ! ♥



Lenah's Outfit - Koala Kisses
Shoes - Dappers & Darlings
Bracelet - Koala Kisses - (Personalized fer me n Tino)

Tino's Outfit - Sprinkly Winks

Pose - 4evah I dew by Defiant Pixels



Have yew had that forever kinda love? The one that makes yew feel like if yew go one single second without them, yer life as yew know it will cease tew exist!? Well I have that with my BooBoo. The most amazing Man on the face of any planet! NO One can compare tew Him. No OTHER Loves can compare to ours. Many have tried tew have what we have, but ... Most have failed cause they don't know the key ingredient that holds Him & I together as tightly as it does.


We were FRIENDS First, we GREW tew love one another! WE didn't say I love you on day # 2 of being together even tho we already felt it deep in the depth of our souls! We waited, we WANTED to make it work, and make sure that we were the one fer each other. And WE ARE !! I so DO NOT know what I'd do without yew BooBoo ... YOU ARE MY FOREVER!! MY MR RIGHT!! I love you more than words can EVER EVER Explain. I've tried numerous times tew tell yew, I've tried tew find songs tew tell yew. Words, of songs tew explain, but those words are only the tip of the ice burg. Two years now - WOW - god where has the time went ?!


I miss yew so much when we're apart, but I'm so glad that I get to have such an amazing man by my side forever! I love you so much BooBoo!! Our love will always be worth saving tew me. Even when I'm in super brat mode! I will forever be honest with you my love, True tew every word that comes out of my mouth (cept when I'm angry, we both know I say stuff I don't mean when I'm seeing RED) I've tried really hard tew stop having that RED! I love you so much  If I died tomorrow - I'd know that I got to finally know what the REAL thing is!! I got to know what it's like to really be loved, to feel it when you hold me, to feel it when you touch me, kiss me! My god I miss your touch! I hope that you will always have that same feeling my love! Our Loves likes battleships ! *sings*



Music Listened to while writing ...

Daughtry - Battleships




Sunday, May 11, 2014

Mother's Day 2014 ♥




I cried like a baby making this image. Mostly cause it's another mother's day without the most amazing grandmother in the world. And, well this will be my first of many mother's day, WITHOUT My mother. It really sucks when you are left with so much left to say, and you will never be able to speak to this person again. ALL The women on this photo have played a MAJOR part in my life. From top right ... Diane, my mother in law - With whom idk what I would have done without the last almost 10 yrs. Thanks Mom Diane !! ... My mother & my brother ... Without my mother, I wouldn't be alive now, she gave me life. But now her life has been taken from us, way to early. I could go on and on about how much I'll miss her, but I hope she's in heaven looking down, KNOWING What an influence and a impact she had on my life. My Dad & my step mother Andrea ... She was there in a crucial time of transformation in my life ... I do miss her and love her so much ♥ Lena, an amazing lady I got to meet from sweden, she is like a mother figure to me as well, and been there the last 2 yrs for me ... I can never tell her thank you enough! My Aunt Donna ... She played a major part of how I grew up, and the lady I am today honestly. Her, and my grandmother made me the Woman I am today. They helped mold me into a good person I think. My Grandmother ... GOd I miss this lady so much - I wish I could squeeze her ONE more time, tell her much I love her, and I miss her being her, cause she's missed out on SO MUCH ! You are Loved and missed so much grandma!! Last but Not least ... Me and the man that makes my heart smile!! I could never thank Him enough for helping me the last two years, and Specially the last almost 2 months, I don't know what I would have done without you. This is for all the women & Men who have played a MAJOR Part in my life ... Happy Mother's Day to all of you and please know without a shadow of a doubt I love you all, and I might be my bratty self, and Not talk much or see you guys much. But please know ... No matter what the distance is between us all ... You all STILL play a major part of my life!!



 

Friday, May 9, 2014

The Story to Devoted to Defiant Pixels ♥



Devotion was made up by pure luck on finding a SIM with the name that described everything we are about! Detron and Dizcordia are all about Devotion. We know we are all here for a reason! We are striving to help people who don't feel like part of the "IN" crowd so to speak. We want people to feel safe & feel they have a place they can feel safe & protected. We don't judge and will NOT allow judging here at Devotion. We love helping people and making them feel like family & friends. We strive to have lots of FUN!!

We have mini golf, bowling, and an area for families to go camping. We have FISHING!! Want to host an event, or need a place to plan an event!? We have a place for that too! We also have a home you can use for your leisure and role play! The kitchen is fully useable for role play! All 3 meals of the day! Breakfast, lunch and Dinner, plus yummie deserts!! There is also a kids kitchen for role play for the little kiddos! =)

We have a bathroom, that is for all sizes. Even a bathtub, and changing table for the little zooby babies in your life, or your family. Tub and shower for all those dirty days of playing outside when it's so beautiful! Warm beds for those lonely nights when you can't spend the night at a friends, or just have no where else to go. You can always know there is a bed for you here at Devotion.  Both for boys & girls and on site staff family and friends that will be living here as well!

We are working on an adoption system that will be placed around the halls when we are done! That way orphans can try to find family. We hope to help connect peole on a more personal level here at Devotion. We understand what it's like to want and need that connection. Not to just feel like you're wanted one day. Just to be left alone and feeling abandoned the next. So we are going to strive to be more personal and enup with LOTS of happy children, homes and families.

While being at Devotion you will notice Defiant Pixels. This is a store made from Detron and Dizzy's creations. Detron is a builder, sculptor, scripter, and teacher! He is a jack of all trades, but the above mentioned are His fave! He loves helping, So if you have a question don't hesitate to drop Him an IM or a NC. As you will come to find out Dizzy, and Detron are both a RL & SL Couple. We met June 27th 2012 and have been inseparable since! Celebrating two years this June! As for Dizzy's role in Defiant Pixels, well she's Detron's little helper! We are an awesome team together! Also a jack of all trades, with Photos, blogging, photography, and a little big of pose ball making. Doing all this while supporting some pretty amazing creators, and designers!

We want Devotion to be all about support, loyalty and Devotion! We want to Thank Everyone who supports Devotion in ALL we do!! Here's to a New out look in SL and to an amazing 2014 for us all !! If you have ANY questions, comments or suggestions. Please contact Detron Seorn, Dizcordia Resident, Lenahranae Resident, constantin0s Resident

Thank you for taking the time to read our Store! Please enjoy yer time here at Devotion!!
Detron and Dizzy
Devotion© ™ *Coming Soon* est 2014
Defiant Pixels © ™ Est Feb 14th, 2014



This song for this entry ....

Dot SE's Cover of Katey Perry - Unconditionally

Thursday, May 8, 2014

Camp Love ♥


Our Hoodies are from Geek !
Campground is at Devoted - A Gift for Minors

Well, Tino and I met almost 2 yrs ago. June 27th, 2012 ... I can't believe I found someone to deal with me this long. Someone that wouldn't let me push him away. Someone that loves me through ALL my flaws, through ALL My ups and downs. Through ALL my moods! He has held my hand, pulled me close, and always tells me he loves me! I don't know why sometimes.

But that's what REAL Love is all about, through the good & bad, through the ups and downs. I'm so glad yew came into my life my BooBoo you are an amazing man. And I'm sorry sometimes, my pain drives me to points of insanity, and I'm mean to you, or I say something Mean to you! You do NOT deserve that. You ARE the love of my life! I love you with ALL I am, and I love the man that I have in my life, that will forever be mine! I MISS YOU So so much in RL! ♥ That's another reason I act out sometimes. I want you here so I can take care of you, and You can take care of me! I love you!! NIKLAS FREAKIN HENRICSON!! I WILL BE YOUR WIFE !!

There is NO ONE or NOTHING That can keep us apart. I do for the first time in ever, feel like I'm with the Man I'm suppose to be with. We have come a long ways from where we were in the beginning my BooBoo. You have helped me grow into a better person, and for that I am thankful! Thankful that you always believe in me, you always have my back, and what we have isn't fake! I love you so much, I hope you never forget that! I don't always tell you the words when we are talkin, but I hope my words here and the music describes it all. Describes everything I feel about me and you, and what we have TOGETHER!!


FOREVER I DO !!
Dızzч Rαиαe Seøяи


This music that I want to go with this post is ....

The Wanted - Glad YOU Came! ♥♥ Glad you came into my life my love!


camp payne !!




Camp Payne - giggles - This was our last name until people decided they couldn't let the past be exactly that ... The past! So ... We took Tino's adult avatar's last name now Seorn. We ARE starting fresh. We are tryin to be new people. We want to show the world we are good, in ALL ways! We don't use people. We don't need anything from people accept, friendship, love, compassion, FRIENDSHIP !! Does anyone know how to be friends anymore?!


Tino, and I have been together almost 2 yrs June 27th 2012, is the day we became attached at the hip! I do have the most amazing Boo on the Universe and He's MINE!! No one can take Him away, No one can make us NOT love each other the way we do right now. We are in love, and I'm so happy that I have such an amazing man that supports me in ALL I do! I'm so glad that no matter what time of role play I want to be in, or whatever my heart wants. I get with this man! I'm so thankful that I have gotten to know such an amazing person! And I'm glad I will be his wifey one day! ♥♥

And little Miss Addie. She's mine sisseh fer sure! She's a little different than  me, I'm the loud and proud one, she's the quiet one that juss shakes her head and nods at everything I says! *giggles* But I wouldn't have it any other way. She is my friend and I've known her since about 2006 ... And I'm lucky she has stuck around with me through everything!



Lenah & Addie's outfit are by Cuddle Bugs - OF COURSE !
Tino's outfit is by : Geek



The music that I think of for this post is ...

 Nickelback - When We Stand Together


Wednesday, May 7, 2014

Future Love ♥



This is Detron Seorn, He is the love of mine life! But as neone knows that is me on His shoulders. So He will be my future husband.That's what I love about SL you can be anything you want to be. Which saddens me cause most people want to be bullies, and bad guys. And judge ppl on something they know nothing about.

This love is built off of friendship FOREMOST! In the beginning I told Detron. I can't be with someone I can't even be friends with. So we didn't RUSH things at all! It took us 6 months to tell one another we love each other. But, we knew when we said the words. We were already IN LOVE! So that just makes for a happy story line! *giggles like a school girl*



Special thanks to Cuddle Bugs TD for the awesome Bear outfit!
FashionNatic for Detron's Outfithis
shirt is  [DN] Listen To Daddy



Daughtry - Battleships



Sunday, May 4, 2014

Saying Good Bye is Never Easy ....

Well I haven't wanted to write much, I've done a few photos here and there. But I been dealing with lots in the last month. Fighting demons I didn't know I'd have after a situation like this. The death of a parent. How do you truly know how you feel until someone is gone? How do you say goodbye to someone you never knew?


My mother left me when I was 5 yrs old. And lots of bad happened in our time together. I can't ever remember much good coming from our Mother/daughter relationship. When my grandmother died November 11th 2002, I tried to go be with her. That didn't last but 7 months, til I ran away with the guy that got me hooked on meth. Then I tried again in june of 2008 to mend our relationship again. That didn't end well at all either. Then December 2012 she disowned me for the 3rd time. I mean just how do you get over this kind of thing? How will the hurt ever go away? How do you say goodbye to someone you never got to forgive? And totally haven't forgotten what happened. *sighs* It's been a month now and I still don't know how I feel. I hope that one day - I will be able to move on from this.


I hope that lenah will be my new therapy. I do love the woman always will, she was the woman that gave birth to me. But, How do you let go of something thas was never resloved? Never got to say yer last words. Never got to see one another a last time. How do you move on from that when there was so much left unsaid? I hope that if you are a friend, or stalker ... That you read this and get a little input on me, and how I feel. This is MY JOURNEL, this is MY BLOG. If you don't like reading my stuff, there's a X at the top right hand corner. Don't hate, don't say hateful things. Just click the X. Be a grown up which a lot of us forget to do at the end of the day. We are ALL here for a reason.

And never forget we ALL have a story. If our life was so perfect, we wouldn't be online looking for things to answer questions, to fill voids. There would be no need for an online world, where most of us feel the need to bully others. I hope that someone reads this and knows that someone else in the world feels there pain as well!


Thank you for taking time to read this, and understanding me a little more!



Dızzч Grace Seøяи



(this is an image I done for her memorial service)

R.I.P Gone but never forgotten!
I do love you and miss you more than you will ever know!




Kellie Pickler - I wonder 
This song means so much to mean cause 
I was in NC and went to California



Martina McBride - In my Daughter's eyes
Just the words are so true! 
about how I feel about me n vanita! ♥

Happy Easter From Lenah!

Easter is about resurrection! So today is the day for me to be REBORN all over. I really need to learn to step away from all the bad. From all the deceit, and lies of a past life, that I don't want to be no part of no more! I wish SOME Memories were like virtual inventory. I wish that you could just right click and delete. But unfortunately it's NOT that way. So we are stuck with the memories. But I hope that ONE DAY my skeletons will all be just washed away! Til then I'll just keep a diary of how well things are goin for me, and my new perspective I'm tryin to take on life! ♥






 My outfit was done by Winter Ravens 


P!nk - Dear Diary


Happy Easter

*giggles* It's that time of year again where we get to hunt eggs, and eat lots of candy. But this year I'm thankful for the little family that I do have! We are just a few of us, but we love each other without a shadow of a doubt. It's nice to have that kind of love on such an amazing day! Here's to hoping you and yours is having an amazing Easter!!





From left to right - Tino & Lenah
Tinos Outfit - Bunny outfit by Winter Ravens
Lenah's Outfit by Cuddlebugs
Pose by Iris

Lenah Ranae  @ 2 months old
Wearing a Cute Easter Outfit From Cutie Cakes!! 


Nick Jonas - Who I am 
(I'm so glad you guys love me for who I am!!)

Napping Lenah



Napping in the Toddler Bed by Zooby
Outfit by Cuddle Bugs
I love my new home, I sleep peaceful here! ♥ I hope everyone
Will enjoy the adventure with Lenah ... I will be Posting all kinds of photos
From ALL ages ! *giggles*  so if yew see me as a baby on
one blog, and as a kid on another blog - yew will knows why! *giggles*


 The Scrip Ft Will.I.Am - Hall of Fame


Lenah is HERE !!!

So the day has finally come, and I have ARRIVED!! I have started fresh with new thoughts, new ways I want to deal with things. And this is my Resurrection so to speak. I am being reborn as lenah, I want to have something I have never had before ... And that is FAMILY!! I want to be REBORN and I WISH that people didn't hold grudges. And I WISH that people didn't have to be fake in a world where you can be ANYTHING. When you can be ANYTHING why do you NEED to be fake ?! Are you this way in Real life? I act the same in Secondlife as I do in Real. I don't have many people in my life in real life, and I DO NOT have many people in my secondlife. I don't deal with fakeness, or people who want to bring me drama. I will cut it ALL off. If it even means me losing friends, or people I care about. I'll walk away, just to keep the drama from the ones I care for. I hope that with this new way of thinking, and wanting to live. I can leave the past behind me where it needs to be and where it needs to stay. If you want to judge me on my PAST ... Then I guess we were never meant to be friends to begin with :( which is sad in my book ... with all this being said - 
I am LENAH RANAE SEORN!!! AND I AM REBORN !!! ♥♥
 
 
 
 
 
Zooby Baby - Casey Model
Outfit - CB Giraffe Jumper
Monkey - Token Toy from Zooby
Inspired Song - Britt Nicole - Ready or Not (feat_ Lecrae)